We found out little dude will be leaving us soon. We don't know when though, so are playing the waiting game until they give us our 5 days notice. Since we found out, there have been tears and anger and sadness and quietness and a mixture of the above from each of us. It's interesting to see how each of us are reacting to the news. People keep asking me how I'm doing with it and honestly, I'm not really wanting to talk about it. If I did, I would be crying all the time. We are talking about it as a family all the time and I'm keeping the communication flowing between me and the kids, but really I guess it is just that I don't know what to say when people ask. It sucks and isn't the way we would have wanted this to go. We never intended to adopt him or keep him forever at all...we want him to go back to his mom when she is able to care for him. We don't want him just being moved to a new foster home because "it's the law." That makes no sense to me when he is so settled here.
Oh well, God is still God, even when we don't understand. He sees the big picture. So, while we are waiting, we are just continuing to love on him with all we have and soaking up every day we get with him. We are trying to pour Jesus love into him and his mommy for as long as we are able. Please pray for him and his mom. And pray for us and the kids. People have told me (over and over) how hard it will be to give him back and here we are...and it's going to be hard. I've asked each kiddo separately if they want to get another foster child when little dude leaves and T and P said yes! C said he wanted to wait a while. We don't want to do anything they don't want to do. I asked him how long he wanted to wait and he said a week or two. LOL. I had already planned to wait that long. We need to decompress and sort of mourn the loss of this precious little guy. And to sleep. We may sleep til noon all week when he leaves! But then, we will look forward to the next little one God allows us to love on and keep safe. It's an honor to be able to be used by Him to care for His children.
I heard this song again today and it made me tear up. We will just keep serving and worship and running the race marked out before us while we are waiting and taking every step in obedience. It's not easy, but it's what we feel like God has called our family to do for this stage of our lives.
We definitely appreciate the prayers for little dude and for each of us during this journey. Obedience isn't always glamorous or fun, but praise God, He never leaves us.
We are all waiting for something. What are you waiting for? Remember this week to serve and worship Him while you are waiting.