Little Miss has been with us for one week now and the changes in her in this short week are amazing to me. She is becoming more like a "normal toddler" everyday. We still have a long ways to go and a lot of ground to make up, but it is so encouraging to see little changes.
I have heard over and over this week (and all during the foster care process too actually) that "I couldn't do that" and "It would be too hard to give them back." I get that. I really do...and am dreading it all too. This week, my best friend had to "give back" two precious boys that have been part of their family for months. It sucks and it is hard. But you know what, the changes in Little Miss in this one week are worth the pain it will be to give her up. And I know my friend would say the same thing. They changed those boys' lives forever by being selfless and loving on them as if they were their own. If not you and me, then who?
Yes, it will be hard...but no harder than a 2 year old who lived the way she lived. How fair was that to her? She didn't get a say in it at all. She was born into it. We are grown ups, and have well adjusted children...we are blessed and we have a choice. Yes, it will be so hard on the kids. Princess P said the first day that she wants to keep Little Miss. It's going to be hard. But if we all worried so much about how much it was going to hurt US for the kids to leave, there would be no one to care for these kiddos who just want a safe place to be.
We don't know if we will have her for another day, month, or year. We don't know. Thankfully, God does and we are trusting Him to take care of her. But as Princess P said when I told her we would probably only have her a few days, "Well, let's give her the best few days we can."
And so we are. And loving having her here. And praying for her and her family and her future. And that was 4 sentences that started with "and." :) (Oh - one started AND ended with it. Bonus!)